| 夢=ゆめ |
[Jul. 23rd, 2006|11:18 pm] |
the title for those who can't read hirigana saids dream and unlike my other one's this was more so of a scary dream then weird.
To bring you in on it this, it starts once again at school and im in class when a girl that I use to have a crush on, she was my longest crush since i've came to A&T, and she is on my myspace friends list, ask me for help. What's scary about this is she is in this semi goth like get up, as in she has an all black dress the kind you see in Asian horror films, and hair similar to that of the girl from the ring just not as long. So she ask me for help but it's in this soft faded voice as if she is on her last breath or something, and just as im getting up to go see what's wrong, Dee-Bo, as in "Tiny" Lister the guy from "Friday" comes out of nowhere and yoke's me, that's when you pull a person back by their neck. Anyway he is all like "what are you doing with my girl", and I say "she is just my friend, I lost my chance to give her my heart", after that it's gets stranger as Dee-Bo now get's on his knee's and now he is begging me to save her. I look up at her and she is now this pale white looking color and she is starting to slowly fade away while screaming this soul cutting cry for help.
After that I woke up, in a bucket of sweat and I was just about to call her when I convince myself that it's all just a dream but it seemed so real, and just thinking about it now gives me chills. |
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| Stole from Chirs |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|02:23 pm] |
Do this and re-post it. I'll do it for j00.
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours. |
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| Sometimes you forget that ppl are human |
[May. 23rd, 2006|11:24 pm] |
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Well sometime 2day one of my mom's friends had died, and she didn't know how to take it. I mean I knew something was wrong when she went to her room and closed the door, my mom barely closes the door to use the bathroom, so normally her room door is always open. I went in only to find her head in one of her pillows about to cry, she pulled herself 2gether briefly to tell me what had happen and I figure it would be best if I just walked out and let her grieve(sp). It's rare that I see my mom like this at a point where she is just scared and confuse and b/c of that fact it kind of scared me.
For a while i've been trying to deny my on humanity trying to prove to myself and anyone that was around that, a logical sound mind will keep you from the bad feelings of emotional pain and fear. While ideal maybe right, I myself am not the right person to follow thruogh with it, and so I must subcome(sp) to my humanity....atleast for now
As for my mom she is going to make it but it's going to take a while for her to get thru this. |
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| Can You Feel?????? |
[May. 22nd, 2006|08:24 pm] |
Funny I actually had this blog all planed out, but now that i'm typing it, I really don't now where to start. So I guess i'll start by what inspired the title, I recently been learning and translating the lyrics for Hybrid Rainbow (my profile song). After translating the song I came to realize how sad this song really is, I mean yes it is up lifting in saying that there is hope for tomorrow but at the same time being stranded on a island waiting for rescue only to die (i explain more on that later).
Anyway as of recent I 've been feeling as if i'm stranded(metaphorically), I mean, even tho most of my friends live inside NC, I have no way of visiting them, as for my hometown friends (which im plder than them all) most of them are preparing for the working world decideding either to go to a C.C.(comunity College), the Army, or just fallen off the face of the Earth. As for my family, my mom and my sister have been getting worse and worse, my mom supects my sister of stealing from her(Bank card, and cash), my sister is acting more and more immature, and my nephew is getting on my nerves, I know im suppose to love my nephew and take care of him but not when his mom is in the house and has decided to just close the door to avoid being bother with him I mean really what kid of paranting is that. I mean my sister so far has successfully ruined most of the major Holiday's, example past mother's day my mom's car had broken down so she rented a car, my sister wanted to borrow the rental car and told our mom she would be right back. Our mom wanted to go to her mothers grave and put flowers on her grave for mothers day, but my sister never return(came back like after church service was over), by that time my mom Blood Pressure had hit the roof and came back down, and so far the fighting between those to have been getting worse. I guess it has always been this bad and im just not use to spending this much time at home. But back to the point of this post for some reason it seems like when things start to get me down around here I for some reason or another start to here Yamanaka Sawao scream "Can You Feel That Hybrid Rainbow", and all I can do is nod as the hope for tomorrow sets in.
Anyway thats all for now, I Leave you all asking Can You Feel That Hybrid Rainbow????
Ashita wo Motteru. |
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| Nihongo benkyou |
[Apr. 12th, 2006|01:31 am] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
僕わ昨日ねぼうしました。そして日本語のクラス行けました。そして大学の店で
飲物.かいました。それからダトハッコ遊びました。それから僕とエヴァンわマリ
ボヴァツスカプカモ2(奇蹟対カプカマ2)遊びました。今、僕わ寝ます。お休みな
さい みなーさん |
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